It’s like a ton of bricks really….

It's June. My heart and my mind and my body become restless. I often think it’s because school is ending, summer schedules begin, and every year a week before the anniversary of her death I feel my anxiety shoot through the roof. They say you have events that forever change how to live life. I…

I’m not smart.

My emotions got the best of me in all places, an award ceremony at an elementary school for my first grader. She didn't know I was coming. She didn't know she would be receiving an award. Her teacher asked that I keep it a secret. The night prior she indicated that "the Award Assembly is…

The Rose.

The news of my friends passing is still not quite real yet.  My mind knows and understands. My faith is firm. My heart though, my heart hurts. My heart aches for another message, another selfie, and another hug and laugh. My heart wants to look over and get a sneaky grin from him in the…

Bathroom stalls and Diet Coke.

I sat in a bathroom stall and opened my Diet Coke and I wheezed. My breathing was short and labored, but I didn't really care. I just needed 5 minutes. 5 minutes to hide, regroup, and suck down some Diet Coke. I've been 6 months without it ( mostly), but I caved. Since Christmas break…

Ms. Pinkalicious

Yesterday we skipped out on Church, because my daughter coughed all night. She slept till 9:00 a.m. (unusual) and then laid around on the couch all morning ( also unusual). We also had a rescheduled Girl Scout meeting, due to some serious flooding the Thursday before. I had some serious mumblings about Scouts being on…

Balance.

Since returning to work after my second sabbatical of maternity leave ( Yes, that's what I'm calling it- it's less invasive and then I can laugh it off), the word balance has been playing over and over in my head. I am constantly saying to myself balance, when I fall short for the day. If…

Strong.

Strong: Ability to withstand great force or pressure or wear. - English Oxford Dictionary Things that have taken me to my knees over the past two or so months: I had a baby. Maxwell "Max" Atlas Webb. He was 5 lbs 7.5 oz and 19.5 inches.  A c-section. I had high blood pressure that was…