Balance.

Since returning to work after my second sabbatical of maternity leave ( Yes, that's what I'm calling it- it's less invasive and then I can laugh it off), the word balance has been playing over and over in my head. I am constantly saying to myself balance, when I fall short for the day. If…

Strong.

Strong: Ability to withstand great force or pressure or wear. - English Oxford Dictionary Things that have taken me to my knees over the past two or so months: I had a baby. Maxwell "Max" Atlas Webb. He was 5 lbs 7.5 oz and 19.5 inches.  A c-section. I had high blood pressure that was…

The Builder.

Control freak. Yup, that's my hand raised. I admit it. I'm a control freak. I plan my pee breaks people, so needless to say the past six or so months have been not planned AT ALL and ALL out of my control. And I've had a lot of unplanned pee breaks 😉  A lot of…

Loving Christmas.

What I love about Christmas? The story of a humble birth in a stable. Christmas Lights. Cookies. Snuggling watching a Christmas Movie. Speaking of which, listening to my husband quote Clark Griswold for the 100 millionth time and actually relating to every scene of that movie. " I don't know what to say Audrey, but…

Grace.

I whacked all my hair off on Saturday, because on Friday it just didn't look or feel right. When my hairdresser whirled me around in the chair and my reflection was beaming back at me, I was like a tad shocked. "Why is my hair so short?? Bless her heart, in her sweetest voice said "because you…

The news.

THE WHY? THE WHAT? THE HOW? Sometimes life is funny. Actually it’s hysterical. Honestly even making the big announcement, even though many of our close friends and family already know makes me feel extremely vulnerable, because what IF something does happen. Here I am- right where I was 6 years ago and even worse 2 years…

I'm on year eleven. 11 years. I can't even relay to you how eleven years feels impossible, yet so quick and so long all at once. Life without her has continued, just as she promised it would. Life has not been easy or smooth since her passing. Maybe it was harder when she was here…

Labels.

When I was 8, I was baptized into The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints in Pembroke, Virginia. Throughout my life I have been named or called the following because of this religion: LAME. STUCK UP. STICK IN THE MUD. BITCH. POLYGAMIST. CULT MEMBER. When I was in Elementary school I didn’t have a…

Refocus.

When I was 22, fresh out of College, I had BIG plans. I was getting married the same summer, my husband was pursuing a masters degree, and I was ready to work for a bit and then tackle the wonderful wild life of motherhood. My parents would live forever and all would be well. I…

The Spare.

This past year has brought a lot of ups and downs. It was a good year for the most part. I have nothing to complain about. Life is good. The ole' Cubbies even won the World Series.....who saw that coming? I mean, let's face it I do have some of my Uncle's blood rooting for…